Placenta not the Culprit
sending a balloon to space!
well, it seems i did not in fact plant all of esme's placenta bc there is still some inside of me! i went to the midwife today for an ultrasound bc of this pesky bleeding which i have attributed to "overdoing it"...and they found material in the placenta. i have a d and c or are they saying dnc scheduled for tomorrow. toni, the midwife who delivered jack gave me a worse case scenario which includes affects on future pregnancies...but this is worst case...really it should all be fine...they'll know more once they get in there.
to ms teresa, pat and trish....thank you thank you thank you for sending cards to miss bell...i wish you could hear how delightedly she tells me all about them....this one is hand made...this one has irises which are just like hers in her garden...this one just made her day...all of them give her cause to be excited to peek inside her mailbox. she says she anticipates everyday there might be another card!
we took the walls off of the back of josh's new truck this evening...he is going to rebuild them higher to hold wood chips and logs. it was such a nice evening that we all piled in and took a drive on the dirt roads near our house. we forded the stream and took a left (for those of you who are familiar) through some woods and out in between acres of wheat fields...jack laid down with harry on the way home...and the bumping sent esme right to sleep in my pack. it was a fun family outing.
usually when the kids nap, like most moms, i zip zip to do a load of laundry or 2, think of something for dinner...sweep up jack's lunch off the floor...maybe have time to head outside and weed or plant or water something, tidy this or that and then greet them when they wake up ...and think to myself that i'd love to be laying down!
the morning after the bonfire, we took a walk in the woods...my brother matt has always seemed most himself when in the woods or by water fishing =)
esme had her first round of vaccinations today.
there is a movement towards growing ones own food as well as growing heirloom varieties. the idea behind the heiroom being that you can 1. save seeds from year to year (most commercially produced seeds are rendered sterile so the seeds won't sprout) 2. preserve the older varieties of plants which have been whittled down due to gross production of a few hybrids ..for example, we have 12 different types of tomatoes growing right now and i was given 3 more from this seed swap that i have never even heard of!! 3. be more in control of what we eat and to know where it comes from
Well, when the sky turned dark and it started to pour with rain, we had our doubts that folks would show up for the bonfire....but somehow, it just made the garden lush and green and cooled the air perfectly so that a fire was welcome...and passed fast enough that most were on their way already! esme had about an hour or so of tummy pain...so i sorta passed people with a quick "hello" and took her for a drive... but you know, it is actually kinda neat to watch something happen and to realize you don't have to be there orchestrating everything. i am usually like a crazy chicken...making sure everyone has something to drink etc...but you know, they did just fine without me =)
i lost the "before" photo of this cabinet...it was a brown and black cabinet that my dear friend cindy had in her garage. we had john deere green paint left from the gate, so i sprayed it green and kassie painted on it....isn't it just wonderful! i thought it would be great for the kids' playroom.
as i type, dinner is being finished around the fire. it is dark and the whipoorwills are considering beginning their chorus but not quite ready yet. the kids are both sleeping well...jack and i just sang his version of kumbaya and then he rolled over, fingers in mouth, and drifted off. esme is cooing like a chicken right beside me...contentedly sleeping. josh said today for him was a "wendell berry" day...peaceful and just right. (which is amazing bc he hurt his back a couple days ago and saw the chiropractor this morning to reveal some twisted vertebra!) maybe he meant the weather...
this evening we planted esme's pink dogwood tree. jack remembered the process from yesterday's planting so he set straight in digging the hole and waited for the placenta to be placed before shoveling atop it. our only hope is that as they thaw that the dogs don't start a diggin' that would be a gross "gift" to find at our front door.